Friday, April 27, 2007

whoa im back here again. yeahs. here to lament about my life. yes. it could be better. but now, it isn't getting anywhere. i'm not even stagnant. its slowing eating on me with not any leeway at all. had econs test today. but it was terribe. i dont deny the fact that i relented when i was studying for my test. and for the fact that i did not put my heart into studying. but it really struck me then that i had sorta given up on this test.. and yep. i did whatever i could. but hahaha.. my efforts were put to waste. i got the concepts wrong. not suprising. thats how thwarted my life is now. not only concepts of econs, but my ideas towards life too. they somehow trap themselves at a corner. there isn't a ray of hope or any form of motivation now. hahahah. life sucks when you are aimless. to a large extent, in fact. tons of hwk undone. killing me inside. couldn't get myself down on the chair to do it. isn't easy facing the teacher when you havent accomplished what you promised. duno lah. my econs test was a great failure. chem sucks too. but not exactly as bad. i studied for chem. and the test had crossed boundaries to explain definations which not one who's in the right mind will study those. congrats boy. youve succeeded in giving loser questions.

no idea why. this is the first time i'm feeling distraught and stupid after a long time. its been seriously a long while since i last felt this way. i'm feeling STUPID okay. like.. not as intellectual as the rest. tmd. weiqin's words have proven their effect already. my mind's damn dry.. and i can feel its constant contraction. =/ man, i feel like dying. life is taking its toll on me. but i'll do fine.

Yours Truly @ 4/27/2007 12:53:00 AM.